I have no idea how your personality will be. I have no idea how you will react when you see your parents. I have no idea how lovely your smile is. At this point, I have no idea what you are. However, I do know this: even though I haven’t held you yet, called your name lovingly, or changed you yet, you have already changed our lives forever.
Knowing I get to come home from a hard day at work to see your picture on my refrigerator or the pictures that your mom has in her bible really makes me smile. Getting to hold you (via your mother) makes me happy, and I look forward to the day when you start wriggling around inside of your mom and make us both gush with pride.
There are a lot of uncertain things about you at this point, but one thing is definitely certain: you have a name. I knew your name before you were even conceived, and your mom agrees with me – for a change. Your name will be music to our ears, and we both look forward to calling you for years to come. If you are a boy, you will be named after me. If you are a girl, your name will be Megan Chantel, and your middle name is after your auntie.
Speaking of which, everyone is looking forward to meeting you for the first time: your grandparents, your aunties and uncles, your cousins, and even your Godparents. Now, about them: your Godparents have been carefully vetted and selected from people that both your mom and I would trust with our lives. They are looking to spoil you rotten, but they’re gonna have competition from your parents.
Just to let you know about your parents, your mother has a soft heart. She will coddle you and love you and tell you everything will be all right. I have a soft heart, but I am also stern when I need to be. Don’t believe me? Ask your older cousins…well, ask them when you learn to talk. I will sometimes come across as brash or angry, but it is only because I have your best interest at heart. We both want to shield you from all harm, because that’s what parents do.
I look forward to holding you in my arms for the first time, but there is one thing that I know for certain: I love you more than you will ever know, and you have already made me a better person. I can’t wait to show you how.
UPDATE (10/28/10): I told your mom I didn’t want to know what you were until you got here. I personally put the over/under at my finding out at one week. I should’ve taken the under.
That secret lasted less than a minute.
See you in March, Megan.